all.for.one

my employer wants me to stay on island…should i stay or go? T_T

while i was helping my high school wrestling coach coach his high school students….i didnt know God was going to teach me something…

 i was trying to encourage the students to wrestle with a purpose…but they keep quitting…T_T…

while they wrestle, when they think their about to get pinned, they just allow it to happen…

i saw this as a huge spiritual lesson. how many times do i allow myself to fall into temptation. knowing myself…i love to make excuses and blame ppl/things for my failures…when i think iam about to lose, what do i do? this was the biggest question i kept asking myself. what will i do, when iam wrestling and i feel that iam going to lose?…

i love how God reveals Himself ^^

it really hit me…never quit

i said it repetitively throughout practice…and it finally hit…DONT QUIT, WRESTLE

a segment in C.S. Lewis’ book Prince Caspian really rocked my world:

“I do indeed, Sir,” said Caspian. “I was wishing that I came of a more honourable lineage.”

“You come of the Lord Adam and the Lady Eve,” said Aslan. “And that is both honour enough to erect the head of the poorest beggar, and shame enough to bow the shoulders of the greatest emperor on earth. Be content.”

we all come from a very noble line…may we live up to the greatness that God bestowed!

Phileo ^^

one thing i hate about being injured…is that my mom freaks out =P

after my surgery i was in the hospital for a week T_T…my mother had to take care of me, because i couldnt walk nor could i bend my knee. i felt real bad, because i was suppose to leave to Guam right away, but then, this happened..

well since i have nothing to do but read and sleep, i watched my mother’s every move intently…to make a long story short, i grew to really admire my mother. she literally did everything for me, i pretty sure she didnt eat (she lied to me one morning saying that she left and ate when i was asleep, but i wasnt asleep and knew that she didnt leave my side). while she was sleeping next to the hospital bed, she woke up every chance she could to see if i was alright…she barely ate or slept…all to take care of me..

for those who read this, i encourage you…please go to your mother (or father) right now and say i love you ^^. although it may be awkward if you never done it…but honestly…they do so much and they deserve our thanks…our very life =)

sorry ms an…

i remember saying that i was going to TRY to write on my tumblr everyday…but total fail maam…my apologies…

well, all in a nutshell…

i have been pretty discouraged lately because business is going really really slow =P…

but one thing my pastor said that really hit me was this…

a soul is priceless.

although i have spent alot of money going to missions. i never really thought about giving the money i am “suppose” to be earning… i have always thought “when i get the money…” or “if the machine sells, iam gonna get…” … it really hit me… everything is Gods…

everything is Gods ^^

i know this post sounds weird…but forgive me its late here -__-‘

no matter if i make millions or lose every dime… the time spent here… no payment would suffice.

God how can i have been so foolish, thinking that i have been unsuccessful… Lord may i see all that i have and NEED is in You ^^

i get super excited when i see certain cars… -__-‘… i always think iam going to see my friends =D…but then, i realize its not them T_T

today i was at a signal light…the car in front of me had a California license plate….dude!! i totally forgot i was in Guam!!!~ i thought it was normal! haha 3 seconds later, i shook my head and came back to reality lol

some cars i saw and got super excited:

White Camry

White Ridge-line

Green Camry

Turquoise Corolla

I feel the weirdness… being back feels so weird T_T

God please keep me head-strong >.<

today i kinda got mad…because the teachers didnt show up for a meeting. i know i must be humble, because these teachers are older than me… God is really molding me ^^

man…i am really learning to work hehe =)

God Thank You!!

Today i realized the saying… they are like sheep without a shepherd (MK 6:34)…

my first fellowship with the kids. we had a movie night at my house.

man i was super tired, but still… i was still able to see how precious my youth are… they are soooo special. it really broke my heart to see that they didnt have a solid church or pastor…God please help us build our foundation on You! You are our Rock!

my Msn asked me to stay another year >.< i couldnt give him a reply T_T lol

Time waits for no one…

i cant believe 4 weeks went by already…i have been on island working and stuff for 4 weeks now T_T…kind of weird…

i had a meeting today, it was a good one i think… it was like a slap in the face and God giving me His grace. God provides….

…. but now, i mustn’t be lazy…-__-‘  …. i dont want to “just” try hard, i want to succeed

no excuse